Update: Lest you forget this is a frivolous pink blog ...





NEVER EVER FORGET! Don't be fooled by the wordy entries and seemingly reflective pieces! This is still a blog written by a girl who loses her colored contacts and calls it the "worst day of her life". (And then she loses her favorite fake lashes a few days later and calls its the second worst day. Sigh.)

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Seems like Twitter has been inspiring a lot of my posts, and today's going to be no different.

I always knew I prefer mean and bitchy people, or, in other words, people who are downright honest. Somehow I just feel more comfortable around these "louder" people, because I can be myself, and these people are less likely to judge. But what I realize in the past week is how much I HATE (and I say this with as much rancor as I can - you can't see this but I'm frowning intensely now) people who act noble and kind and self-righteous in front. Absolutely hate it.

Especially when one of them says this:

"OH AS LONG AS HE'S HAPPY, THEN I'M FINE WITH IT."

What, you think you're being so noble and kind just because you put other people's happiness before yours? NO THANKS!

It just makes you a damn liar, that's all it does.

So if I said you throwing yourself off a cliff in a RACCOON suit will make him happy, will you do it?

No right? Then don't say all that oh as long as he's happy crap!!! Especially when you don't fucking mean it!

I rarely believe that anyone can willingly put others' interests before theirs, even the biggest philanthropist in the world. Because by wanting to help people yourself, by putting "helping others" as one of your interests, then you're still doing something you want right!

(I'm still frowning intensely.)

In other words, there is no altruism in this world. I don't even know why this word exists, if only to prove there's no such thing.

It's a contentious debate, and I don't have time to explain but basically yeah. There is no such thing as putting other people's desire before yours, because in the end you still did it. Get it?

The thing about the "as long as you're happy" is if it's used in the right context, then it's fine. I've said it before myself. I've said that I hope Wee Lim can find a good girlfriend some day because I want him to be happy, but only because I know I'm gonna find someone one day, and I don't want to see Wee Lim sad. So I only want him to be happy because seeing him sad will hurt me. So I'm still being selfish when I say I want him to be happy.

DIFFERENT.

What about you? Do you prefer people who are mean in front or those who act noble?

Do you think altruism exists?

Posted by May Zhee at 12:17 PM | Permalink | Cook Me

... I have decided I am going to be a politician.

As I was in the middle of a personal war with Wee Lim's family members and friends (and winning, obviously), I realize just how good I was at all this. I'm actually like really, really good I'm not even bragging. I almost never lose.

At least politicians get paid to fuck people around. When teenage girls/bloggers do that, not only do we not get paid, we are called immature, bitchy, etc, but look at world leaders both current and past. Are these 40/50 year olds in suits any different from kindergartners fighting over the sandbox?

And people call me childish. Ho ho, you think I'm bad? Look at our politicans. I'll fit right in.





Me on July issue Women's Weekly! Thank you Ellen for the write-up and WW for the awesome shoot :)

PS - Thanks guys for all the encouraging comments in the previous post! I've read all of them, and I kept reading over them twice because all of them really meant so much to me. Never have I had a blog post that would result in so many sincere, nice and thoughtful comments. I will get round to replying them tomorrow! LOVE YOU ALL!

Posted by May Zhee at 4:20 AM | Permalink | Cook Me

Me and Wee Lim have had a very weird and long relationship.

Everytime I look back on our relationship it's always just problems and our incessant arguing. It seems like problems were basically what defined our entire relationship. In the first half, it was because I was controlling him TOO much and he wasn't very happy with that. Towards the end, it was because I was not controlling him at all, that I just didn't seem to care about him anymore, and he wasn't very happy with that either.

People who tried to get us back together often tell me this.

People: Why break up?
Me: We've been having a lot of problems ...
People: Aiya normal ma. Couple always got problems one, always argue one!
Me: But you see, that's the point. It's not that we argue, it's that we don't argue anymore.

All throughout our relationship, we've been arguing. Because I cared. But one day I just stopped caring. And so the arguing stopped. (Will be explained why later.)

Despite that, I think what Wee Lim and I had was really what made a good relationship. The fact that we were never static.

This is what I wrote on 7th September 2007:

"If there’s one thing I learnt from all this, it’s that I was horribly mistaken. I thought imperfections soil a relationship. I thought they shaken the very foundation of a relationship and it is a shameful thing, a thing that ought to be tucked away from the light.

But now I realize that arguments, problems and tears … that’s what you call a perfect relationship."

Hahah it was back when we had problems of me being a psychobitch too much I think. Can't remember. 2007 is such a long time back. Things have changed so much since then that even the biggest problem we had back then has blended into the background now, with other seemingly big problems.

Back to my point, we were never static. We fought, cried, laughed, hated each other's guts, made up, pissed each other off, did horrible things to one another, publish a book about the other person, loved, lost it, loved again, more crying ... but we were doing so great together.

And then it all stopped. And indifference filled the void.

That's why we broke up.

We went out for four years. Four years is a very long time. We shared a life together, and traces of that life can be seen everywhere. They're all within an arm's reach, mentally and physically. Heck I'm typing on a laptop that belongs to him right now. I'm a usual figure at his family events, he is the object of adoration for my family. All that connection and ties are still around.

We've been through so much in school, ups and downs, given up so much for the other, and I remember a friend Dhiva telling us after one of our serious incidents in school that if after all this trouble we don't end up married some day she's going to come and whoop our ass. Or something like that.

We've had a lot of history together, you can tell just by reading this blog. We were really close and at one point, we could have really just gotten married there and then. We were both that emotionally prepared to spend the rest of our lives together.

Truth be told, even right now, I feel like I can. If he proposed to me right now, part of me feels like I can take this shit. I still love him, I do. But the other part, the bigger part of the 18-year-old me right now ... is why we broke up.

I stopped caring not because I didn't love Wee Lim, it was the idea of a relationship that I didn't love. I didn't want to commit anymore, but I still loved him, which is why the last few moments of our relationship was absolutely horrible.

I didn't want a relationship, but I was selfish and I still wanted him, so I kept him. But anything to do with a relationship I discarded. I would tell him I love him, but I wouldn't show it. He asked me if I could do over, would I treat him better so we wouldn't have broken up? I said no, if I could do over, I would just end it earlier so you wouldn't have to suffer as much.

So when you ask me, why am I still hanging out with Wee Lim, even though we've broken up? Well, first of all, we're still friends, of course we can hang out.

Secondly, totally shutting out someone I just got out of a four-year-relationship with is going to hurt me. Love's complicated but life doesn't have to be. It's simple. We're happy when we spend time together and so we do it, as friends. If I know there's a way to stop myself from getting hurt, why shouldn't I do it? (We're also both not mutually exclusive, so there's nothing wrong.)

Plus, Wee Lim was an amazing boyfriend. And an amazing person. There was no doubt about it. We were great together. We both agreed we had a great four years together and that it was fun.

So after all this, you ask, why can't you just get back together?

Well for one, he is still the guy who cheated on me. Secondly, I do still love him, yes, but in a Jennifer Aniston still loves Brad Pitt way, you know? He still loves me too and I hate to compare him to Brad Pitt (HAHA) but it's the same thing. Of course we still love each other. When people go "OH MAY ZHEE YOU STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR HIM" I look at them, perplexed, and go, of course I still do love him! But I just know we'll never get back together. Not now. Not tomorrow. Maybe in the future, ten years or so ... maybe then. Or maybe we'll have an on-off thing. Or maybe we'll be serious again. I don't know.

But what I do know, not tomorrow, not now.

Posted by May Zhee at 5:09 PM | Permalink | Cook Me

Yes, that's right.That bag you are staring at, with that bemused look, is a survivor.

It belongs to U Zhing, bought in a Topshop sale and though at the time U Zhing bought it because she liked the thick rope straps, it was also for this reason that the bag became a SURVIVOR. *cue those tribal music*

What happened was, one day U Zhing, Max and I were walking to our car in Bukit Tinggi just in front of Asoka restaurant ... when I saw the above bag fly up as a motorcyclist zoomed past, and i took me only a split second to realize she was becoming the victim of a snatch theft. I screamed, U Zhing managed to hold on to her bag, her arms were hurt, the snatch thief zoomed away on his motorcycle, I screamed Fuck You.

Seriously like how screwed up does the place have to be if you can't even take a less than 1 minute walk to your car without being in fear of your life and belongings?! U Zhing had a vinyl red LV purse in that bag ok!!! Stupid fucker I hope your babies will be born deformed!!!!!

So that's the incisive story of how the above blue bag bought in a Topshop sale became a survivor. I was so proud of U Zhing because honestly if that was me gone case already la my bag would be in the hands of the snatch thief with the deformed genital.

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Melbourne pics time!!!!



A lot of people don’t know I have a brother. Worse, a lot of people don’t know I have TWO brothers! They go like, HARH YOU GOT BROTHER ONE MEH?!

Poor thing my brother accidentally didn’t exist already.

Here are some photos of us in Melbourne to show he really does exist and is not a figment of my imagination.


Yes la terrible eyebags. Commenting about them won't make it any uglier ok so shut up.


He does exist.


He does exist.


He does exist. And takes stupid photos.



Taken at the train place called Puffing Billy. Initially I wanted to write a long ranting post about it but then I realized how much effort and planning my mom put into this trip so I decided not to.

See Ma I love you so much. Wtf this is weird I never called my mom Ma before.

Having my driving test later. Am trying to comfort myself by saying a lot of people failed their tests too. Really one leh some people failed three times some more!! Wish me divine luck. I'll tell you guys later of the results.

Posted by May Zhee at 8:47 AM | Permalink | Cook Me

DUDE I LOVE HIM.

The part where he hits on Rozz. Omg!!! And in the queue-cutting scene when he said, "You kan ma cut lim peh's queue ah?" HOLY SHIT HE'S SO FUNNY!!!

And cute as hell.

Seriously. Is it just me or do you find yourself strangely attracted to this guy as well? He freaking speaks Chinese!! I just wanna take him home.

PS - Someone deleted my wall message on her FB. I only wrote one line, but since she deleted it ...

CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY? CHEATED WITH ANYONE ELSE'S BOYFRIEND LATELY?

I don't see what's so bad about that.

Posted by May Zhee at 1:10 AM | Permalink | Cook Me

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HAHAHAH ok so the main character is some gorgeous chick *cough*, the sidekick is my brother (I purposely picked the photo where he was on a helicopter so he had on that cool helicopter headgear look very superhero-ish right!) and the villain is … my failed cupcakes HAHAHAHA.

Wah the female lead is really some gorgeous chick huh.And she looks damn funny bouncing around on a cartoon body hahahah omg the cupcakes are so damn FUNNY. I swear to God you guys must WATCH my video it’s so funny!! Look at the cupcakes!

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Okay that’s all remember to watch my video!!! I look very pretty as a head but I don’t understand why it’s so much bigger compared to my brother’s ...



The winner will be announced in about a week so be sure to catch that!! Their videos must have been damn good for them to have won so go watch their videos!!

Posted by May Zhee at 6:29 PM | Permalink | Cook Me

Note: This was written even before the “Coward” one. Was waiting for the right moment to publish it.



Wee Lim and I have broken up. A long, long time ago. I found out, recently, however, that he had cheated on me during our relationship with a friend of ours, Peg Ni, in Melbourne as well as on another occasion back in Malaysia. (FYI, Peg Ni also had a boyfriend at that time so she was the cheater AND cheatee. Classy.) So now I am a scorned ex-lover writing this blog post explicating everything. Now I can choose to make further acerbic remarks like, “OH MAN HE COULD NEVER GET IT UP” but I shall refrain.

:D

Because this situation entails a long history of things, a very complicated web of factors and effects and I can only fit so much, content and feelings-wise, into a blog post, I am going to attempt to write this in a way that does not pass judgment on my ex-boyfriend. It’d be unfair, and because it’ll influence the way you look at him too, so whatever that falls under his section will just be described neutrally.

What I am going to do, however, since I’m allowed to anyway, is pass judgment on myself. Let’s begin.

Wee Lim and I have had our problems going back to before he left for Melbourne. We were doing just fine until I royally fucked up our relationship. If I say it here now, you probably wouldn’t get it because it seems like extremely simple things, but trust me, to fully understand anything I am saying here you would have to take the feelings you assume WL felt, and multiply it by ten. Then you’ll get the gravity of this situation.

I knew I’ve been a bad girlfriend and I knew I hurt him so much. It was so bad that when I put myself in his shoes and thought about how I made him feel, I had to yank myself out of his role because it was just too hurtful to bear. Looking at the stuff I did to him, over and over again, really you’d wish you could just put an end to the relationship yourself. The pain heaped onto myself, upon seeing the things that I did, was equally unbearable. I started to hate myself so much.

Once in SATC, Samantha had an actual love-based relationship with Smith, but finally one day she went and fucked Richard Wright at his party, which she attended with Smith. Smith knew about it. When she was done she came back downstairs and Smith was waiting right there for her there, and she actually REGRETTED fucking Richard Wright (for people who don’t know, Samantha NEVER regrets and she NEVER loves so this was special for her).

So anyway, when she saw Smith, she broke down and said, “I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I hate myself for doing this to you.”

That scene was so powerful, for me, because it epitomized exactly how I felt. That’s exactly how I felt. I didn’t know what was wrong with me at the time when I did all those horrible things, until now when it’s over and I am reflecting upon them. I hated myself so much for doing it to him. The way I felt about myself and what I did … I couldn’t decide whether this, or putting myself in his shoes, was worse.

It’s to the extent that when I found out he had cheated on me with another girl (a friend of ours to boot), the fact that he got pissed ass drunk with her and were all over each other in a friend’s house, and proceeded to spend the night together back in his house (according to him nothing further happened ie he didn’t fuck her. My reply was, does it matter?) and then her leaving his house at 7 in the morning, even when I found out about all this, and about the other (minor in comparison) infidelity incident that happened in Aloha bar a year back … I just couldn’t feel hurt for myself because when I did, I would compare my pain of knowing my boyfriend cheated on me with what I’ve put him through in the past, and, somehow, somefuckinghow, his cheating became justified in my head.

And that’s when I started to compensate like mad. I just wanted him to be happy, even at my expense. If cheating was what made him happy then, in the midst of all the pain I was causing him, then I came to terms with that. I was hurting him so bad that seeing him happy at my expense became acceptable, almost welcoming, to me.

BUT THEN AGAIN, I had played the role of the crazy ex-girlfriend very well too. (Though with decreasing frequency in correlation to my mounting guilt.) I realize how I might have painted you an image of myself as an angel but it’s not all AWW POOR EX-BOYFRIEND thing for me. I have unleashed a few of my little surprises on him as well. No one cheats on me and expects to get away entirely unscathed, can they. (Though like I said in this case I already hurt him enough from the start so it cancels out slightly.)

Okay so that’s it about us.

That girl, on the other hand, the little slutwhore that she is … I don’t know. Natural consequences, baby. I think exposing her here is humiliation enough, I don’t wanna pass any judgment on her, I’m not gonna say things like “HEY SLUT HOW DOES A BURNING CB FEEL LIKE” or “IS YOUR CB ON THE SIGN OF A SHOP BECAUSE IT SEEMS TO BE OPEN TO EVERYONE” – modified from SATC, or “Are you sure you’re my replacement because I didn’t see you in his rebound girls catalogue”. Oh no no I won’t say all that about her at all, I’m not even gonna make any judgments on her hair color, education level, jejune opinions, bad English, simply because… I’ve already done it many times furtively in the past MUAHAHAHAH. Some things are just self-explanatory anyway.

Oh in the spirit of neutral descriptions, remember that Peg Ni also had a boyfriend of her own at the time when she was making out on the floor with my boyfriend. :D

Anyway it’s pretty hard to insult someone who doesn’t have the same intellectual capacity as you do. Imagine me trying to be all witty in a nerdy way, like “I hope you will one day teabag a man who has Adolf Hitler’s coital organs! Or should I say, organ? Ho ho ho ho *those upper class laugh*” Or or or if I said something like, “Instead of warning people about the industrial-military complex, President Eisenhower should have warned America about you!” Okay this one a bit makes no sense. But nevermind it still sounds smart.

Probably the worst insult to her would sound like that:

Hi there everyone! My name is Regina Phalange and I am a confident, achieved and ambitious person with a commendable aim in life. How about you?

TEEHEEHEE.

I mean, I’m still not going to pass any judgment on them. It’s just that, Wee Lim, from now on, this is going to be how we’ll be explaining our break-up.

Someone: Oh, I heard you and May Zhee broke up! Why!
Wee Lim: Oh she was a bad girlfriend, she ignored me, she basically kicked me out of her life, she was cold to me, she wouldn’t care about me when I needed her, she really hurt me deeply, she would not reply my SMSes, or even talk to my on Skype, despite me being in Melbourne. She totally did not treat me as a boyfriend or a human being. That’s why we broke up.

Someone: Oh, I heard you and Wee Lim broke up! Why!
Me: Oh he cheated on me with this girl named Peg Ni.

I’m just saying.

PS - By the way, you don't have to feel sorry for me, or for Wee Lim, as a matter of fact. We're getting along just fine now. We're going to the Manchester United game together, we're planning movie marathons, etc ... we'll be hanging out very often. As friends. If you have to feel sorry for someone, feel sorry for Gertrude (it's a new name I've given to Peg Ni :D), because like hell am I going to let her go just like that. I am going to nurture this antagonism for at least a few more weeks and then I'll let it go for good. How am I going to do that, you ask? Honey, what do you think those Manchester United tickets are for?

Posted by May Zhee at 8:33 AM | Permalink | Cook Me

Are you excited? :D

Actually it's kinda already on my Twitter but don't ruin the surprise!

Posted by May Zhee at 1:10 AM | Permalink | Cook Me

9am - Wake up
9.15am - Hit the gym in the club house
10am - Walk back home and have some glamorous breakfast (NO I DON'T EAT KOKO KRUNCH WHO SAY ONE)
10.30am - Sit by garden reading one of my EE novels, looking pretty
11.30am - Still reading because I'm educated like that
12.30pm - Lunch!
1pm - Start working on summer assignments, preferably my History IA
3pm - Start reading a bit of Germany history, can choose to do so at garden but must check if any anti-Hitler living nearby. Must also check if any pro-communism living nearby ... so we can launch into interesting conversations and conclude that communism looks good in paper but is just not executable. Sigh.
5.30pm - TV time!!!!
8pm - Dinner
8.30pm - Family time! Told you this was my perfect schedule. We'll have loads of Kodak moments, laughter, family bonding, all that ...
10pm - Retire to bedroom and online world! Facebook, blogging, Twittering, chatting, surfing Ronaldo videos!
12/1am (depending on how interesting the previous activity was ... or how many videos more of Ronaldo I have not seen) - Sleep.

So yes. That's how a perfect day would be like. But what is really happening is this.

12pm - Wake up HOLY SHIT I was supposed to wake up at 10!!
12.05pm - Sleep some more
1pm - HOLY SHIT I WAS SUPPOSED TO WAKE UP AT 10!!
1.30pm - Brunch. Sigh.
2pm - Go online
4pm - Go out with friends for movies, shopping, lazing at each other's place, just plain hanging around with no aim (IN LIFE)
9pm - Come back late for dinner. Get scolded.
9.30pm - Walk around the house bored and consider this as spending family time. Mother smack brother over the head with newspaper because brother didn't do homework. Kodak moment out of the window.
9.45pm - Start going online.
6am - Sleep. Wtf.

Posted by May Zhee at 12:34 PM | Permalink | Cook Me

... about who is Hui Wen.

And I cannot for the life of me continue blogging until I figure this jumbled mess in my head out!!! (Being dramatic.)

So the big question is, who is Hui Wen and is she this pretty girl in the middle????



If that's not her then who is this pretty girl in the middle!!!

But okay nevermind that's a topic for another day!!!

Is this the Hui Wen that works for Nuffnang Singapore?! Is there even a Hui Wen that works for Nuffnang Singapore?! Am I hallucinating???!?!

Okay the reason I'm asking is because I don't know how many times I've seen people talking about someone named Hui Wen and when I look at the photo, I always see a different girl!!!! And I get so confused!!! WHY IS THIS NAME SO COMMON AND WHY IS IT ALWAYS MENTIONED ONLINE!

Someone please clarify this for me! Just tell me all the Hui Wens you know in your life, doesn't matter if it's your friend or sister or grandmother or long lost cousin, just tell me even if I don't know them or even if they existed ten generations ago, so the next time I come across this name again, I'll know who is who, and who is NOT who!

So, who is Hui Wen?

Posted by May Zhee at 5:18 PM | Permalink | Cook Me

Noah: Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?
Allie: It's not that simple.

Our favorite line. :D



What is it about that movie that makes you want to watch it ten times and still not be bored with it? WHAT?

Posted by May Zhee at 12:59 AM | Permalink | Cook Me

I don't understand WHY a photo with such good colors and is 1.49mb in size can turn out so blur!!! So I used a lousier mode on the camera and ...


Colors end up lousy. And still blurry. I turned on flash and I managed to take a nice photo of the flash itself.

Okay I just gotta show you this. Above is the original photo, below is the photo that my friend Amani tweaked the colors for me!


I can never for the life of me figure out how to do this! And even if I did I'd be too lazy to tweak the colors.

I know the bangs can be a bad idea, but I swear dyed hair makes almost everything look acceptable sometimes. Just a short update! I'm feeling so indolent today, just wanna stay home.

Ever since I got this hair EVERYONE's been asking me if I'm Japanese, or if I'm Malaysian. Like random strangers on the streets. Dude, even if I am Japanese, why are people on the streets just asking you questions like that?! Weird.

Anyway oh God I've been having my driving classes this whole week and these are some of the things overheard.

"You knock die how many people already?"

"If you know you're going to knock the divider, YOU DON'T CONTINUE DRIVING UP IT." (My reply to this was that I didn't know when I was going to hit the divider!!!)

"The poles represent people so if you knock the poles, you knocked someone." "Hello anyone stupid enough to just stand there and let me knock totally deserves it lor!"

I'm not that bad actually. I did the parking impeccably every time, I can do the three pointer, the uphill part is okay with a little bit more practice. I'm fine with all those. It's when I LEAVE those things that I start messing up! When I try to go from the three pointer to the hill part, I start driving up dividers and knocking over poles. Damn embarrassing ok that whenever the sound of a pole falling down is heard, my instructor from afar will turn to look at me. It's like he knows it's me!

My instructor also said I am very bad with the steering wheel.
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My God the steering wheel IS the car ok!!

If I'm bad at that then no hope already la!! T_T

I wasn't too bad on the road either ... except for directions. Holy shit I use the same road four times and I can still forget which direction to turn. I said women are just naturally bad at directions and my instructor told me to stop circumventing the blame! But I'm not circumventing the blame! I'm circumventing the blame AND blaming all the other women in the world at the same time! See? Different.

But just you wait. I know I'm bad now ... but I will get better. I'm really not that bad I swear. I just need practice. I am confident I can do this. I will be the first person in my friend circles to NEVER have been involved in an accident when driving on the road! JUST YOU SEE. (Stop laughing Max.)

PS - Anyone knows the song Chasing Pavements by Adele? Am I the only one who likes it?! Do you know if it's used in any movie or TV show ... because it should be! It's so suitable! Recently I've been very hooked on songs that appear in movies and stuff, like He's Just Not That Into You when Somewhere Only We Know by Keane starts playing, before it was Bittersweet Symphony in Cruel Intentions ... I just downloaded Big Yellow Taxi! Any other good songs that appear in movies and all? Tell me!

PPS - Stupid PPS was too disheartening so I deleted it! I will finish my Summer Resolutions! HUAH!

Posted by May Zhee at 3:24 PM | Permalink | Cook Me

This is a message to Wee Lim, who is somewhere in 570 Swanston Street, Melbourne now.

You claim your life is ruined, and that you're messing up your exam papers, and that you're taking pills, and that Melbourne got swine flu. Woooo. (Okay maybe he didn't use that last excuse, but I'm just throwing that in anyway.) (So to anyone who has swine flu in Melbourne, PLEASE, do not go near 570 Swanston Street. You wouldn't want to contract syphilis too.)

Where was I? Oh yes, you claim your life is ruined and that your feelings are SO affected by what I'm doing.

Oh yeah, then what about me, goddamnit? How do you think I feel about this? You think your friends and family all know what you did and hate you like shit now? No! No one hates you, not even those who knew what you did. Look at Chee King, who is still trying so badly to patch things up with you. Look at Valen, who is still thinking sensibly and looking at both our sides for your sake. If you look at the birds also confirm they start singing for you lor.

Look around you, look at your family, look at your friends, look at your Facebook for God's sake, look at your dear CY or Amanda or whoever, they are all so caring and supportive of you ... have you heard what people are saying about me?

Do you know what people think about me?

They think I'm the big bitch who fucked you up badly, they all hate me, and they love you. To death. I talk to them about you, and they sympathize for you, telling me how I had it coming.

People. Fucking. Hate. Me. As. Your. Girlfriend.

YOUR LIFE IS RUINED. REALLY?

They are fucking congratulating you, saying words of ENCOURAGEMENT and SUPPORT to you, for fuck's sake. If that's a ruined life ... I hate to see how a day in your happy life looks like.

I doubt even my own cousin, aka your best friend, is on my side. I doubt even my own cousin, aka your best friend, would be on my side if he knew what you did.

(No, it's not what happened in Melbourne, because you are trying waaaaaaaay too hard to deny that so I'll hold it off for now. It's about what happened in Aloha Bar on Christmas eve. :))

So please, use your brain a little, before you sprout rubbish like "My life is already ruined what more do you want" because no one fucking hates you, delusional dickhead. No one is saying you're the asshole in the relationship, everyone thinks you're great and pure and innocent.

And next time, think a little about who you're saying it to. You said it to me, someone whose life you indirectly tried to screw up.

And just because I handle myself better in front of people, just because I have the emotional capacity to isolate my personal life from my studies (a skill which you clearly lack) does not mean I am any less scarred, or that my suppressed feelings are any less significant than yours. You are welcome to blame your scholastic incompetence on me, babe. And your mental health too. Because God knows you're too pussy to own up to anything.

Word of caution, just because I can be the man in the aftermath of this all does not mean I will continue allowing you to conveniently heap the blame on me. You can do that, and you can continue telling your friends everything but the truth, but it has to stop one day. On my call.

Wee Lim, you are a disgrace to men everywhere. I cannot wait for them to find out what you did.

This is for you.



I took it in Melbourne.

Afternote: He's admitted it.

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So I was out with Jolene, Sheng Giap and Zlwin today, and I asked Zlwin what he was doing now.

And he said back, "Oh I'm the resident magician at Zouk."

This is me.

"OH MY GOD ARE YOU SERIOUS SHUT UP, SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

How cool is that!!!!!!! My friend is a magician leh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't have any friends who are magicians so this is very exciting for me!!!!!!!! Goddamnit too bad we've been friends since forever and that he has a girlfriend because I love it when guys perform magic tricks!!!!!!!!!

This is what you can do if you want to date me and make me totally fall for you:

1. Play the piano/guitar and sing well.
2. Love your mom.
3. Perform magic tricks for me!

Jay has all of those by the way.

Okay so anyway this friend of mine Zlwin works as a magician!!!!!!!! Omg how cool is it that I get to say that! Let me say again! Hello there I have a friend named Zlwin who works as a magician! Holy shit it still sounds cool! Again again! Hey have you met my friend he works as a magician!!!!!!

In ZOUK.

:D







He is there every weekend ... how awesome is THAT! I mean the fact that I have a friend in Klang who drives to Zouk every weekend MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHH I am so happy!!!!

You can check him out at his website zlwinmagic.blogspot.com and hire him for your events!! There are photos and a list of his other events on his website! He's going to Laundry bar again I heard!!


Oh I found the poster!!!!!

More at his website!!

This is so awesome just you wait I'm going to Zouk every week now Lee Chong Wei wait for meeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

"Have you eaten your lunch?"
"No, but I do have a friend Zlwin who works as a magician!"

PS - Zlwin will be at Zouk tomorrow night!!!! For those who are there tomorrow night say hi to him ok! :) And ask him to perform a trick or two for you guys!!

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Me, Brooke, Debra and Ana all dressed in black and pretending to walk! Very Sex and the City right!!!!!! This was before we partied the night away at Le Blanc! Look at the next photo!!!!


LOOK! It's us four again! Ahaha ok with Linnea but she's back in Sweden already :( Nevermind! You can be our long-distance friend who is a smart working woman who only dates problematic men way below your standards!

I would totally be Samantha she is like my favorite character in SATC! Love her! Sometimes I think the only cogent reason I'm watching SATC is for her! She is so funny and has the best quotes ever!

"I will wear whatever and blow whomever I want as long as I can breathe and kneel."

"The country runs better with a good looking man in the White House. I mean, look what happened with Nixon; no one wanted to fuck him, so he fucked everyone."

My favorite of all:

"You men have no idea what we're dealing with down there. Teeth placement, and jaw stress, and suction, and gag reflex, and all the while bobbing up and down, moaning and trying to breathe through our noses. Easy? Honey, they don't call it a job for nothin'."

LOVE. HER.

Brooke should be Charlotte (for those who don't know she's the one in the center of the photo) because she's just as adorable!!! I don't know who should be Miranda and Carrie! Ana and Debra you guys decide yourself!!!

I think the one with the more histrionic relationships should be Carrie!

Here are some photos taken with my LG phone:

A lot of you said my photos were blur, and I seriously think that's my hand's fault lor! This photo not blur right?


Again taken with my phone! I was walking down Mont Kiara and I saw this and had to take it!! Holy shit man isn't this clear as hell! WHERE GOT BLUR! (Obviously very defensive about my pink phone haha)


Also taken with phone haha GZ did this.

Now commencing the random photos taken at school (I'm on my summer holidays now by the way! Until August!) ...



My TOK presentation and hahaahah Ana took those of my shoes. Welllllllllll let's just say after that presentation people were asking me, "So how are you feeling?"

Oh yeah. They seriously said that to me. That probably gives you an idea (albeit amorphously) of my presentation.




Us carrying the different flags for our seniors' graduation day! The head sticking out right there with the peace sign is Scotty representing India HAHA I mean Korea.


Taken after graduation!


Pretty photo of me in school TEEHEE. Even prettier Shereen behind yes la I know.


He made me do that sign!!! He was like you have to do this sign May Zhee it's the Korean sign I'm like whattttt. But obviously mine is better than his.


This photo is a lie! It's him pretending to be teaching me and me listening intently.

Are you kidding me that's not me listening intently that's me trying hard not to laugh.


Taken on the last day of me and Linnea meeting because I went to Melbourne for a holiday and she left shortly after I came back :( Oh God I remember my last words on the phone to her being "FUCK YOU LINNEA FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU" (no no in a frivolous manner of course! She knows!).

Ahh good times in school. Good times. You know, enrolling in MKIS might just be the best thing ever that's happened to me. Ever.

PS - For discussion's sake, who is your favorite character in SATC!! I want to know!! And why? And does anyone actually like Miranda? She's the most boring character there leh!!

PPS - Omg! Have you guys seen THIS yet??



If you have not, I suggest you CLICK that now! If only for the music, which is awesome. It's about the inner life of a cell, done for Harvard Biology students and it's so ... heartrending, for some reason. Aha and plus with the music the video just makes you wanna gape in awe.

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I was actually gaping at the screen at how good the movie is. This is not like me. I usually don't like action movies or movies without lines that make me laugh every five minutes. Maybe it's because of my anticipation for the movie, which met my standards wholly. WHOLLY.

Throughout the movie I was thinking, TDK (The Dark Knight), you have a competitor! Not surprisingly Christian Bale is in all my favorite movies that man just can't make bad movies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And the fact that he can be so HOT while being awesome just boggles my mind!! He may just be the first hot guy on my list who can actually act ...

Debra complained about how there are no sex scenes but I told her how he commanded people around was sex scene enough. Goddamnit I could have masturbated in the cinema that was how turned on I was by him!!!!!! (Fuck. Why do I say stuff like that. Gotta be tactful and not tell you everything! But heck if I were a guy you would have totally not minded lor just because I'm a girl I can't say it?) (I AM JOKING.) No seriously. The way he commanded the Resistance ... throughout the movie I was like fuck me fuck me fuck me. Trust me there were many Fuck Me moments in the movie. "The Command is asking you to attack but I am asking you to wait." "FUCK ME." "They willl not attack unless they get orders from John Connor." "FUCK ME." "The command wants us to fight like machines but we are not machines!" "FUCK ME ALREADY!!!!!!"

Ah I want to go into a long gushing rhapsodizing post but I can't. I just can't. I'm still hyperventilating from how fucking hot Christian Bale was in that movie. And MAN Marcus was so hot as well! Damn!! And when I saw Kyle Reese I was like holy shit are you for real he is not bad too wei!!!!! This is the first time I actually think THREE characters in one movie are hot!

TERMINATOR SALVATION = BEST MOVIE OF 2009! Wait TDK was 2008 right? Okay so yes!!! TERMINATOR SALVATION = GOD.

PS - Might I add I am totally not a fan of Terminator movies lor! I absolutely did not get the storyline despite watching the previous movies umpteen times because I just didn't care. Wasn't this the same with Batman!!! I told you guys how I didn't like Batman but I am CRAZY over TDK. Geez. The things Christian Bale makes me do!!! Terminator Salvation was just awesome, even movie-wise. The acting was good, the casting was good (not as good as TDK but close), the script was good ... and the movie had meaning. And the actors played out the meaning very well, you see. I LOVED IT LOVED IT LOVED IT!

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